Depression is like the ocean
Except you are not swimming, you are drowning When it started you were in a shallow lake You were minding your own business before it raised it’s stakes A single thought of death popped in your head But you brushed it off at first Then suddenly, the water raises as you quiver It becomes harder to move in the lake that is now a river You keep walking but now it’s at your neck So, you try to swim but your tired Then seaweed catches your feet You try to swim away but your at your defeat So, instead you let yourself drown Though your hand is raised in hopes someone will see you You wait to see who will hand you a life savior Two things happen in this behavior Someone helps you out Or people watch as you drown The end is unclear in this case You are unsure if you will ever get out of this place
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Everything small and big cuts threw my soul
It’s tormenting to be on this world The devil is making my life a mess But I must confess Fighting gets tiring And I want to give in I have fought for a thousand years I have not won yet that much is clear Like Good and Evil it goes on for a lifetime No, more than a lifetime, it goes on forever! Up and down and back and forth I’m eager to get rid of it’s source I want this torture to end But it keeps on going forever I want to be set free But I am stuck down on my knees Evil is all I hear, feel, and see The devil draws pleasure from this And I can agree with him! Torture is fun to watch with grim Please make it end! Why am I the one that is evil to God? Why do I have to be a sinner without knowing? The punishment he gives me is showing God wants me to suffer Like the devil it’s entertaining Get the thoughts out of my head! I want you to stop making me shed I’m always scratching at my head
There is blood on my finger tips Thoughts of death flood my mind I want to stab my brain to get them away But they continue thinking about dread I feel tormented by life and God To me he is the devil in disguise What humor he has! There are so many tears I shed I want to scream and take my head out I don’t want to die but it’s hard to try To keep living in God’s punishment I want to live but it’s torture ahead I’m stuck living in this world with no escape I have been carrying weight for too long Yet somehow I keep going in this pain Tik Tok, Tik Tok
Swinging back and forth like a hypnotic clock On the tree swaying back Like Tik Tok, Tik Tok The feet high above the ground The eyes getting blurry and ringing sounds The neck breaking And seeing the scene like Tik tok, Tik tok In the forest and seeing white Life flashing in the eyesight Next to the other life Now seeing the grim reaper as the clock stops it’s Tik Tok For a while, I have been searching
But all have failed The ones I thought that were true Didn’t come together like glue Everyone wanted to change me They didn’t understand who I was They wanted what they wanted me to be Not what I wanted them to see Time and time have I failed With each one I thought that I wanted forever The clock continued to tick By the passing minute I was lovesick Dreaming for the one I kept searching But as it went on My hope was gone Then suddenly it came The one fell into place Surprised and in denial I pushed it away for a while But then I started to admit These strong feelings that grew I confessed my love to him And he confessed with a glim It was like a fairy-tale I had found my happy ending There we walk together in the sunset above At last, I found my true love The Storm is thundering down
It has been for an eternity There is no glimmer of sunlight Rather it consumes my might Like waves crashing on the shores Lightning striking down everything It's chaos in my wake And I can't take any more stakes Now a tornado hits spinning around Taking what's left of my purity It's way too late to save the day The dark clouds cover despite my say It's all too much I want the sunlight to come back But the Storm keeps raging I'm forced to keep engaging |